I have planned a trip home and I think I will stay longer than expected. I feel the need to connect with my roots, where the line between right and wrong is black and white. I know that I am kind, I was raised that way. I think I take after my grandfather, everybody loved him. The only drawback is when its too much. I never thought this was a bad thing but the ways of the world have shown me differently. Probably need to covet this tender piece of me in my reserve tank, for those who are worthy, I wish everybody was but that's foolish. I'm grown and have to accept things as they are. Los Angeles is tricky. Everyone is out for themselves it seems. What can you do for them? What do you bring to the table? I bring nothing but my word and the occasional bad joke, some people seem to laugh. I know in the end I will be ok because I am ok now. It seems I have some semblance of peace after wandering in the territory of heartbreak for just a tinge too long. I convene with like souls, they are few and far between and we all admit our struggles. Not everyone can appreciate a kind heart, it is important to choose wisely.
I read the proverb of "The Wife of Noble Character" Proverbs 31: 10-31. The only book that matters breaks it down. I highly recommend it. I read it and feel reassured. Tomorrow I rest, I am just learning how to do this by the way, never really knew the importance of it. It is more than just sleeping, it is filling up with the good things.
Everything is changing and I'm OK with it.
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