Truth Serum

I am learning to be a good friend.  It is an art.  You don't always get what you think you want but you most always get what you need if you find the right person.  It's like walking the tightrope in the circus finding these people.  I think I have found my band of vaudevillians.  They are a colorful bunch.  Super talents with big squishy hearts like mine.  Some of them I have known for years and the jury was out for a while but that was mostly my own stuff.  This trust business is like treading in murky waters.  One day you just have to go on faith and know that no matter what happens it will be ok.  Life doesn't always have to be a soap opera even though I sure knew how to cast mine like one.  I was very good at selecting the less than worthy sort.  Like Luke Spencer on General Hospital full of deceit and lies.  You know the ones that are only out for themselves.  And I could cast some pretty good femme fatales too, they were super pretty and didn't bat an eye when they were stabbing you in the back.  Ruthless Behavior could have been the name of my soap.  I am so happy to be done with THAT chapter in my life.

No more drama, like the Mary J. Blige song.  Although I do like a bit of good drama and I think it's because I came out of the womb of my single mom three weeks early.  I was born in the eye of the emotional storm and it just kind of snowballed from there.  With the gentle guidance of a few mentors I am now able to channel it all.  I can be more real with my writing and more real with my peeps in general.  The truth is often all you need.  If you tell the truth no matter how hard it is it can make for a very interesting life.  It's like when you have a crush on a boy and you think he feels the same way and he doesn't, sometimes that type of truth is a hard pill to swallow.  But you do and miraculously someday out of nowhere another one appears and tells you that you're pretty and you believe him.  He means it.  He is telling the truth.  I like those moments of truth.  

I swam in the pool today and my freckles came out.  I cooked dinner for friends.  Marinated that piece of meat for two days, just call me Martha.  It came out well if I do say so myself.  We ate outside as the sun was setting and swapped stories.  I am content.  I am sleepy.  Now I'm gonna watch Tangled and call it a day.